I FORGIVE MYSELF

I forgive myself

From the hurt and pain

I caused upon myself

I forgive myself

For believing that I am a disappointment

Because you said so

I forgive myself

For feeling unworthy, unintelligent, careless

Because I believed I was

I forgive myself

From crying night after night  

Because I thought I was a failure

I forgive myself

For believing I was a failure

Because I did not see that it was an opportunity,

a learning experience

I forgive myself

For thinking I could never be loved

Because you didn’t love me

I forgive myself

For not loving me enough

Because I thought I was not the

 type to be loved by anyone not even me

I forgive myself

For thinking I am ugly

Because my skin is not light

My hips are not wide

My face is not smooth

I forgive myself

For not thinking I’m smart

Because I didn’t know maths

Nor did I always get As

Lastly I forgive myself

For trying to commit suicide

Because I thought I was a problem

A burden, a disgrace, unfit to live, fearful

Mostly because I was a coward

                                                         the lovepoet

                                                     from deep within the soul