I FORGIVE MYSELF



I forgive myself
From the hurt and pain
I caused upon myself

I forgive myself
For believing that I am a disappointment
Because you said so

I forgive myself
For feeling unworthy, unintelligent, careless
Because I believed I was

I forgive myself
From crying night after night  
Because I thought I was a failure

I forgive myself
For believing I was a failure
Because I did not see that it was an opportunity,
a learning experience

I forgive myself
For thinking I could never be loved
Because you didn’t love me

I forgive myself
For not loving me enough
Because I thought I was not the
 type to be loved by anyone not even me

I forgive myself
For thinking I am ugly
Because my skin is not light
My hips are not wide
My face is not smooth

I forgive myself
For not thinking I’m smart
Because I didn’t know maths
Nor did I always get As

Lastly I forgive myself
For trying to commit suicide
Because I thought I was a problem
A burden, a disgrace, unfit to live, fearful
Mostly because I was a coward


                                                         the lovepoet
                                                     from deep within the soul


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